Note: i feel as if this is not complete yet,so i may get back to it later.
My intermediate exams had just ended, they were the worst exams i had given in my entire life! I mean seriously started studying like 12 hrs before the exam without any material or anything ( one would do such things when he is in Engineering :P ) but anyway this is not about my Intermediate Exams, Its about my Eamcet. so here goes, I had attended one eamcet class in the entire year ( and i was in the eamcet section :P ) and in this one class this guy said out of 160 marks if we got 80 marks we would get a seat in a good college. So i had a game plan get 80 marks u will make it into a good college, but how would i get these 80 marks?? i had a plan for that too :P, maths had 80 bits and i knew i could solve half of em without any practice so that was 40 bits and if i would work hard for the following 2 months i would be able to make it 50! and then came chemistry, for chemistry i had perfect flawless plan there was this book called JP's Eamcet Book it had around 3,000 bits in it and most of the bits that came in the exam were from it so all i had to do was read those 3,000 bits and i would be able to answer atleast half of them that would mean i would get 50+20 =70 bits. Finally It was physics, now this was the most brilliant plan i had come up with :P, we had 40 bits and all of them were multiple choice questions with 4 options and all i needed was 10 marks from physics so what i had thought was go with one option for the entire physics paper cause essentially it would mean i would get 1/4th of the questions right that was ironically 10 marks!
So with this awesome plan i had come up with, i would conquer Eamcet Exam but unfortunately all this planning had to be backed up by studying, which unfortunately never came! Maths had just too many questions :P and chemistry, only 3,000 bits i had thought but later, i realized that these 3,000 bits had taken up around 200 pages! so i never really opened that book :P and physics was the only subject that was going according to schedule because all i had to do was practice my c's :P which was not that hard :D.
A couple of days before the exam, they were giving out tips for students. One of these guys said that "dont study anything new now! whatever you have studied till now that is enough be confident!", never in my life have i taken anybody's advice but somehow his words appealed to me :P, so what do i do?? i dint touch the books :D and was confident!!
Finally it was the day of the exam, going into the college i had met my classmates who were just as cool(clueless??) as me and a couple of them had this bet on who would come out first! But not me, i knew i had to get 80 marks(still had hopes on it :P) and that would mean that i would have to stay till the very end of the exam :P. Bell rang everyone parted saying "all the best", "best of luck" .
I walk into this huge room! that is supposed to be my examination hall. It was a drawing hall ( which i was not aware of back then) one look at the benches and i waslike, how in heavens name am i supposed to give my exam on this thing?!?! but i did adjust and soon the exam commenced i looked around and saw that one of my neighbour was absent! ( who would miss such an important exam i had thought ) . When they handed out the OMR sheets, the horror struck me i had never used an omr sheet in my entire life!! they used to make us take exams every week but conviniently i had not taken a single exam! was i supposed to use pen's?? was i supposed to use pencil's?? after freaking out i saw my neighbours using pencil so i did the same :P.
1 and half hr into the exam, my exam was going rather well i had marked all c's for physics, did some 10 questions from chemistry rest i had no patience to look at so all c's yet again :P, and had done around 30 bits from maths. I just could not concentrate anymore so i thought i would close my eyes for a couple of seconds get up and start solving yet again ! after all i had 1 and half hr left :P. Once i closed my eyes i only opened it, when the invigilator said 10 mins left u can leave if you want to!
Couple of months later i got my rank card :P and i had achieved quite a feat! all the ranks of all of my cousins wouldnt add up to half of my rank! :P
When i was little i was made to participate in all sorts of races, Now that i think of it i wonder if these parents and teachers were all placing money on us :P, will know the truth of that when i become a parent :P. Anyways my motto for the races were simple run fast enough so that i wouldn't end up as the loser and slow enough so that i wouldn't end up winning the race!! ( cause had to run another race if we did win it ! :P )
now in retrospect, i have never won any race, i have never been placed first in anything and it stings knowing that i could have won most of those races if i hadn't just held back.Even now i wonder if i am holding back, holding back so that i don't end up winning cause that would make me a part of something big.
one of the smartest guys i know told me when i was in first year that i could be an extraordinary programmer, three years later i am still a no good programmer who just knows his way around some of the basic stuff! But maybe he did a mistake in judging me??
I will be graduating in a years time and i cant help but feel what good is this degree that i will be awarded by the likes of my college? where i can without doubt say that i haven't had a single lab that was conducted according to the curriculum of the university. I am rather certain that if i use this degree it will just be a means to hide my incompetency or maybe education is just a means to hide our incompetency.
